Can a mortal ask questions which God finds unanswerable? Quite easily, I should think. All nonsense questions are unanswerable. ~ C. S. Lewis
I know this is probably going to piss some people off, but I can’t be silent just because it’s the proper thing to do. We are told not to question God, but to blindly accept, by faith, that there is a purpose and reason for this pain.
As someone with a chronic medical condition, it can be daunting at times to have to constantly fight in what seems like a losing battle. It’s very easy to just give up, tag yourself as a ‘sufferer’, and curse God and the fates of giving you this condition. I must confess, that in my deepest pain, I’ve had such moments of angst, depression and anger. The question most often on my mind and I’m sure on a lot of other minds is why?
If there is a purpose for everything, and all things are ordered by God, then what is the purpose of having a being, or group of beings in pain? What is the reason for delegating a group of people to a lifetime of suffering, many who have never done anyone harm? This on the same planet where murderers and rapists are running free with no painful conditions. Yes, sickle cell is a survival mechanism to protect from malaria, but as a survival mechanism…it’s the pits. Having had malaria several times, I say bring on the Malaria (at least there is a cure!).
Oh, but we aren’t supposed to question God. We are just supposed to believe that all things have a purpose. We are supposed to have faith that ‘all will be well’, and that ‘it came to pass’, and other sayings that in that moment, in the eye of a painful storm, seem like just words that have no bearing or comfort.
I guess it makes some believe more fervently, because there has to be a reason for all this suffering. There has to be something at the other side of final rest, some reason that will make it all worthwhile. But for some of us, it sends me in the opposite direction, because to me a God of love would not want his children in pain for no reason. A loving God, one who is Our Father, should be able to do more than what a human father can do…a mere mortal, who prays that the pain be transferred to him. And since God is All-Powerful, why does God not take the pain away?
So here is my question to the gallery…how do you keep your faith? How do you still believe?